I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait
I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord
Waiting, waiting...That seems to be the theme of this year for Colby and I. We sit together and day dream of living among God's children, orphans, widows, the poor and sick, teaching them about Jesus, and helping to bring their babies into the world. And yet, God calls us back to our little home here, in California, with our two puppies, BamBam and Tiko, and brings us to our knees most nights, praying the rosary with lack of words to tell Him what it is exactly in our hearts that we long for....But oh, He knows ;)
I can't say that this is the most exciting season to be in, in fact - Im bored stiff! And patience and discipline seem to be a weakness I never knew I had until now. I guess you learn something new everyday! More than one person has told us that this is a time where God is building character in us before He sends us out. He is teaching us discipline, faithfulness and patience so that on the mission field when we face hardships, loss, fear, attack and whatever else may come our way- we will have this character engraved in our bones.
Jesus, you know this is the cry of our hearts, so do what You know to do!
Its kind of funny, come to think of it...I see God teaching us these things through the simple, everyday stuff. Huh...Like for instance, our little garden. Ok, I hate and love to garden. For one, I hate waiting- I cant wait to see the fruit!!! I will run out every morning, when I let the pups out to go pee, to our tiny patch of freshly fertilized dirt mound and to my disappointment, which seems like every time---- NOTHIN! Nothing but a few dinky seeds hidden away from the sun, taking their SWEET time. In fact, I hate waiting so much that I will just make a Walmart run and buy the actual plant with the fruit or veggie already sprouting.
And you know something...? While I was busy running around planting these already sprouted bushes of life, I didn't notice the tiny kernel of corn that I had planted in the dirt next to the pavement. It had began to push forth through the dirt! About an inch tall, bright green, and as perky as ever! Happy to be alive! That corn has not stopped growing. 7 gorgeous, luscious cobs have sprouted and are ready for picking and eating any day now! Oh the joy of waiting patiently for the fruit of something that I was a part of planting! Now, I see the joy and waiting for that precious fruit. The taste of long awaited life giving food. The excitement of feeling the accomplishment, the finish line, the end product (until that corn becomes the seed of another). I know, I know, I sound insane talking about corn this way. But God revealed this to me and it makes so much sense. This is how it should be in our lives! Waiting for what He has, waiting for that long-awaited precious fruit after hours of laboring........work, prayer, tears, hoping, wishing, seeking, fasting......Oh Lord give us grace to continue to hold onto your promise!
"But as for that seed in the good soil, these are the people who, hearing the Word, hold it fast in a just (noble, virtuous) and worthy heart, and steadily bring forth fruit with patience."
Luke 8: 15
"And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God" - Colossians 1:10
